One day recently, I was thinking about my life. I had begun college in 1977 and started a Religion-Philosophy major at Iowa Wesleyan College in 1980. I was preparing to attend theological seminary in order to become a pastor in the United Methodist Church.
This thought came to me and it was now thirty-eight years later: "I have always been preparing." It was a feeling I had as well as a verbal thought. The thought persisted for weeks. "Preparing for what?" Talking to God I began to ask: "What am I preparing to do?"
I came downstairs one morning with the thought (sense, and feeling) "I am prepared." "Prepared for what?" Again I asked God.
I began to journal some time back. When I journal, I noticed that I experience what I call gushers. It is like a portal opens and revelations, things that I don't even know that I know, come out.
One day recently, standing in the living room, I was bent over and felt full in my stomach. It was obvious to me that there wasn't anything actually physically wrong with me, but it was like a feeling, only spiritually, and I said to my friend: "I feel like I am going to have a baby. I walked over to my computer and standing at a tall table, I began to write.
I did not know that I was writing a book.
I have always been fortunate to sleep a solid eight hours at night. I began to wake up at all hours of the night and with excitement and passion, I wrote what is now this book. I awoke with words and revelations ready and waiting to be written down. I enjoyed doing it. It became my passion. It was so much fun!
Writing Awaken and Arise was a miraculous, spiritual experience. I couldn't even talk about it except to a very small few. The experience was too precious, too intimate to verbalize at the time.
I am so very grateful!. I am thankful for having had the experience.
Patricia R. Hayward
Patricia Hayward was born Patricia Rudolph, in Red Bank, NJ, on July 28, 1955. She is the youngest of four children born to the late Joseph Valentine, and Laura Lanza Rudolph. She is the mother of two adult children and two grandsons. She began her education of higher learning in 1976, and has received degrees in Social Science, Religion and Philosophy, Metaphysics, and Divinity. She began her profession of Christian faith in August of 1976. Patricia believes that this completed work, Awaken and Arise, was a God-given assigned task, purpose, and passion. She would like here, to personally thank everyone who has ever uttered a prayer for her, on her behalf.